saturday morning

I paced my room this morning walking Elin to sleep. She felt so right in my arms. A perfect fit. Snuggled close to my body, cheeks wonderfully chubby and rosy as she moved her mouth in a mock sucking motion. Her eyes started to droop and my heart felt full. This quiet moment fills me with love and wonder and a touch of sadness. Sadness at how quickly I know these years will pass. Moments like this make all the hard, frustrating, and incredibly long days fade into the background. Looking at her then I knew I would gladly do it all again. For each of my precious children. I would suffer through the hours of incredible pain to bring them into the world. I would cry all over again at the frustration and pain of nursing. The emotional and physical toll pregnancy takes on a mothers body. The feelings of utter aloneness through the sleepless nights that seem to stretch on and on and on. I would do it all again in a heartbeat. Just for moments like these. When I realize how beautifully blessed I am.

xoxo,
Mom