an update.... soon

Today I was really, really in the mood for a big blog update.

Sadly, my battery charger for my camera is lost in the endless Abyss that is my bedroom.

Why is it that my room is the 'drop' place for everything that needs to be put away? At first it's just a few harmless things that get thrown on the bed when we are 'straightening up' before someone comes over. Then before I know it, the whole room is taken over with piles and piles of things that don't belong.

And I know I am in for a long day of sorting and putting away.

Right now we are navigating through the piles just to get to our closet. Yesterday I had to explain to Ed that his belt was in the third pile to the left of the two piles at the end of the bed. He was in there for 15 minutes. Pffffft, amature.

Some may think this is a gross display of slothful-lazinatitis. Well that's just too darn bad. That's life today in the Caballero home.

Tomorrow, when I've had a good healthy breakfast and my husband is on hand to man the little speed racer (who zooms everywhere with his push walker these days ) maybe things will get a little organized. maybe.

love you forever, like you for always, as long as i'm living, my baby you'll be

Why is it whenever I think about my Son's impending first birthday, my heart leaps into my throat, tears well up in my eyes and I struggle for breath?

I keep thinking that perhaps if we just don't pay attention, if we just don't celebrate. If we look the other way when November 11th comes and goes, somehow my baby won't get older. That maybe he'll stay short and toothless and keep needing me in that baby way of his for the rest of his life.

I never imagined being this attached to another human being. Especially one that gave me so much trouble right from the start. I think that's why I feel so cheated. I spent countless hours wearing out the floor of our little apartment. Pleading with him for some sleep, some break in his raging Colic.

Sure, I complain sometimes. Okay... alot, but the truth is I bonded with the little guy so much over those ridiculously trying 5 1/2 months that it's hard for me to accept the fact that he won't need me like that ever again. And that sucks.

There's something about going through a trial with someone that makes you more in tune with one another when it's over.

Why is it when I picture my big 1 year old, I see college, mission, marriage right around the corner.

I talked to Ed about my frustrations the other night. Here's how it went...

Me: Ed, my baby is turning one soon.

Him: I know Kev.

Me: Isn't there something you can do about that?

Him: *laughs* Like what, stop him from growing up?

Me: Yes, please.

Him: *laughs again* I don't think there's much I can do about that.

Me: I hate this.

Here's what I know.

I love my little man, and I know I will love my bigger man. I am excited for each milestone in his life, even though I know they will bring me closer to the day when I will have to let him go. I know that I should stop being selfish and remember that this is about him, not me. That this is an exciting time in his life and I am blessed to be a major part of it.

I also know that even though he may get older, taller, smarter, and with alot of luck... quieter..... this kid?... he will always be my baby.

I'm so in love

tonight

Just came back from a fantabulous evening with a wonderful friend. I love her to death. If I had half of her goodness I would be a much better person . Love ya babe!

I am so thankful for incredible women in my life. Women who are kind, thoughtful, selfless, pure of heart, hilarious and just all around beautiful! The ones who look for the good in people, who are slow to judge, and quick to lend a helping hand. The ones I admire and aspire to be like.

The world could use more women like these.

oh crap

I've been taken by the stomach flu.

I'm pretty sure it hates me, it would also like to kill me.

I'm on my death bed as I write this...

send...help...

Ode to Autumn

A little contest tag here.... Thanks Lace!

1. My favorite fall colour is Burnt orange or deep red
2. The fall meal I am most looking forward to enjoying is Homemade Pumpkin pie, with real whip cream, EXTRA whip cream!
3. My favorite fall activity is We got married in the fall.. does that count? I would love to do that every year! If that doesn't work, I really enjoy taking long walks with the family.
4. I am looking forward to wearing comfy sweaters and Ugg boots again.
5. If I were to fill my thermos/coffee mug with any beverage, it would definitely be a pumpkin/cinnamon spiced steamer.
6. My favorite fall tradition is raking leaves into a big pile in the yard. Then jumping, rolling, kicking and crunching through them.
7. My favorite spot to "take in" fall colours is any beautiful park, as long as my family is there to enjoy them with me
8. My favorite fall sound is the wind blowing the leaves to the ground
9. My favorite fall smell is fresh, crisp air!
10. Fall makes me feel refreshed, renewed, grateful to be alive

it's a tough life

It was a typical morning in our house. I was straightening up, Noah was whining. I swear... the kid doesn't have an off button. It's constant. I think someone is trying to get back at me for all the whining that I did growing up. I personally don't think I did it in excess however my Mother, bless her heart, assures me that I most definitely did.

Any old how, I've just come to accept the fact that my days from now on will be accompanied by a healthy dose of baby whining. Most of the time I try to tune it out. It doesn't always work. This particular day I came into the living room investigating the source of even more whining than usual to find this...

The poor little duffer hardly knew what to do with himself.

I was thinking a little something like this.. I wonder how long he would last under there and exactly how much I could get accomplished while he was otherwise "occupied". Hmmm

No, I thought... Surely he would just whine even louder (if that's possible) And so I freed the little captive and he went on to do great and important things throughout the rest of his day...

Like looking super cute...

He's really really ridiculously good at it

For Sale

Anyone looking to buy a cute little boy??

This week Noah decided to start growing some teeth. And when I say 'start' I mean we haven't seen any physical evidence of it, besides this...

and this...

and even more of this...

They say it will last how long?? At this rate, I might not make it to the end of the week.

Cuteness

he crawls, or scoots... or something

FINALLY!

He actually started this almost a month ago, but I haven't gotten around to getting it caught on video until now. As you will see, he still needs coaxing, because well... he's a baby and thinks he needs to be picked up and carried around everywhere. Ha. Nice try kiddo.

He's stubborn though... real stubborn. Hmmm, he must get that from his Daddy. He could sit there all day and whine and whine at me until I finally give up and go pick up his cute chubby little body. It's true. He's done it on several occasions.

Thankfully now that a couple of weeks have passed, he is tasting his independence a bit more, and well I think he's likin' it. He now will venture down the hall into his bedroom, uncoaxed and unchaperoned. This is big folks.. BIG.

On a side note, the quality of the video isn't all that great, sorry!